I was 17. I was trying to finish high school and figure out what I was going to do with my life. I woke up one morning and felt miserable. I didn’t go to school that day. or the day after that. after 2 days, I forced myself to go the next day. I had a final I had to pass. I ended up calling home sick.
When my grandmother came to pick me up I just told her I wasn’t feeling well again and she looked at me and said “Courtney, are you pregnant?” Of course I said no, no way. And that’s when it hit me. Holy shit, I’m pregnant.
I was panicked. I didn’t know what to do or what to think. I didn’t know how to tell my parents, or to my boyfriend. And I really didn’t know what to say to my friends. Freaking out, I told my boyfriend. He worried for about a minute, hugged me and said we’ll figure it out, and we’ll be ok. And oddly enough, we were ok. and we still are.
While it wasn’t always easy, finishing high school, going to college, and getting a job all while being exhausted and sick all the time was hard. But being a teen mother taught me a lot about my self.
Being A Mom At 18 Taught Me:
- I am so much stronger than I ever thought I was.
- I learned the meaning of unconditional love. We are always told by our parents that they love us no matter what, and yes, they do. But until I held my daughter for the first time, I never fully understood just how deep that love goes. I knew immediately that I would give up anything just to make her happy.
- I am not alone. Ever. I had an amazing support system that I never imagined could be there for me the way they were, and still are.
- Who my real friends are. When my friends all heard the news. All but 1 slowly made their way out of my life. That one friend is amazing, and though we don’t see each other much are still very close almost 12 years later.
- My parents really do have my back no matter what. I wouldn’t have survived without my parents, and my grandparents. They were there for me every step of the way.
- Life doesn’t always go the way you planned. But it can be better.
- I should have slept more!! Seriously, I took sleep for granted before becoming a mom. I mean it, enjoy your sleep while you can!
- Life is hard…. But it’s so worth it.
- I realized later, that realistically, being a teen mom really isn’t any harder than being ANY mom. We all work hard. we’re all tired. Yes, the struggles are different but we all struggle just the same. Being a mom is hard period. But it’s also the best title you will ever have.
- I love my kids. More than life. I don’t regret a thing. People ask me all the time if I could go back would I wait to have kids. The answer is simply no. Absolutely not. But one thing I can say for sure is that while being a young mom worked for me, I will do anything I can to make sure my children don’t end up in the same place as me. I want more than that for my babies.
Me and My Bug Summer, 2006